4 posts tagged “sick”
I've been sick the past couple of days! And to make matters worse its harder to get a doctors appointment here in the city! I need to show a medical certificate for work since i bailed yesterday. I showed up for about an hour and i honestly couldn't stand up. My body was heating up but i felt freezing cold all at the same time. It was bad. I felt like a real nanna at that point. I came home and the boys once again looked after me by getting antibiotics. It was the most horrible experience having to sweat out my fever while i was sleeping. The weird thing with me though is that i'm never sick for more than a day which makes my point of proving it to work difficult.
Anyways here are some of the photos i took for my photography assessment. With limited time on my hands this is the best i could do. Enjoy your thursday vox-ers!!
I have been sick the
past week and a half and really did not have the energy to walk down to the net cafe and post. I hope all of you have been well.
I'm recovering now but still have a haneous cough that follows me everywhere i go!
Work is pretty chaotic at the moment. Its busy period both at the retail job and hotel jon.
Deo leaves for New York City this saturday for two months. I'm really going to miss her.
Went to Sculptures by the Sea with Melody. Its along the coastal walkway between Bondi Beach and Tamarama. Absolutely gorgeous!
But now i leave you with photos from my past couple of weeks! Take care vox-ers and i'll cruise through onto your pages very soon!
Never did i think it would happen but it has. Conflict amongst the flatmates. And its all just happened now. Now when there is only two months left of our lease. Our time together as a quartet. Its between Beau and Adam so i don't want to get involved and neither does Paul but its killing us. We want to step in and say stop.
I went over to my MARCS work buddy Timmy's place last night just to chill out over pizza and vodka. Before i left i noticed Beau went up to his room and closed the door. I thought that was weird so i knocked and entered to see what was up. He felt unwanted. He felt his prescence was unwanted... by Adam. I could hear Adam downstairs making a ruckus whilst washing dishes. He only does dishes when he's pissed off. I told Beau to talk to him while i was gone. I said bye then went to see if Adam was okay. He was annoyed that the dishes were yet again piled in the sink and it was neither his mess nor mine. He was sick of doing dishes for others when Beau didn't do his own but just went upstairs when Adam started cleaning.
Such a tedious task yet when not done when living in a share house its bound to piss people off. We all work hard long hours. Very different jobs, yes. But all still tiring. Energy wrenching. I see both their sides. It broke my heart when i got home last night and Beau was crying upstairs in his room. But simple things could make these type of awkward situations avoidable. Should i step in and say something?
At the end of the lease i did want to move in with all 3 of the boys. We all did. But now there is this divide. I hope its filled in real quick because a house full of tension is a big no no for me. I mean thats why i moved out of home. I love my dad more than anything, but when were in the same room for more than 20 minutes we frustrate each other like its no ones business. I just hope this all blows over. It would be ashame to throw away such a great family unit. Because thats pretty much what we have become to one another.
On a happier note my bestie Serah is coming down from Queensland for my birthday in July!!! I am so stoked! I haven't seen her in almost 2 years! Crikey! Also circa my 20th birthday i am going to the hellogoodbye gig and i am buying Arctic Monkeys tickets as well. Depending on my next pay i may also see the Klaxons.
I got food poisoning over the weekend so i couldn't hang out with Musti. See being a cheapskate means you'll put your health at risk just to save a couple of dollars and buy a dodgy asian rice box on your lunch break. I woke up Saturday morning feeling like death. It sucks because that was pretty much the last day i am free for the next fortnight or so.
Today i'm catching up with my lovely ancient buddy Shida. I say that with love woman! I so can't wait!
Have a fabulous week my lovely vox-ers!!
Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
Right underneath my skin
It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin
I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can but
Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)
So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too
Right inside your skin
I had a great day yesterday at Essential Festival with Selena and Sarah. It was great to see them and check out some of Australia's up and coming indie acts. I'll post the photos later. My camera battery died.
My night was different though. I started over analysing everything. I broke down. I have no idea what came over me. I felt sick in my stomach. I honestly had never felt as bad as i did last night. All i could do was cry. I think its mainly got to do with how paranoid i have been lately. Paranoid that friend A was out to get me. Friend A was constantly calling and messaging and it was frustrating. Can't some people get the hint. I just began to see friend A everywhere. I finally messaged friend A last night and asked them to back off. Friend A responded with "I'm a friend. I was worried something had happened to you". We're not even that close and the fact that friend A approached my flatmate after work to ask where i was, stood outside our window smoking and called my flatmates at odd hours, it kind of freaked me out.
As soon as i received that message i felt even more sick. How could i work myself up so much over nothing. I have never been like this. I just buried my head in my lap and cried. I didn't know what else to do. I felt like i was losing my mind. How could i go from being so happy during the day to so upset at night. It didn't make sense. I felt like a light switch. Have i become that wayward and unpredictable in my behaviour. It scared me. I scared myself. It took me ages to get to sleep last night.
And today i seem fine. I am not so upset, but i can feel it lingering in my mind. I hide it well though. I guess i will just have to continue to do that. I don't want to put this on those around me. Even though they insist on being there for me. I am content but i am no longer happy. Sure there are happy moments. But i cannot shrug the feeling of emptiness. of losing my sanity.
I am sure this will go away.
